I am quite emotionally unstable because doing research is tough for me. Sometimes I felt so good, and even overconfidence, thinking that my ideas are really novel and my research model is very creative. Sometimes I felt so frustrated after getting feedback from professors and colleagues, saying that my model is not neat enough or relationships among constructs do not make sense.
Yesterday, when I laid on bed, I was thinking the intense coursework and research load have deteriorated my quality of life since the beginning of this semester. This situation will not stop until I finish my PhD. Even worse, I will still suffer this low quality of life when I become a professor. So.... is it worthwhile to keep doing PhD?
No matter how I lament my life, I still have to move on.
I started to chant recently. It helps to some degree.
Carlton leaves and I become quite reluctant to stay at home. I rather to stay in the office to forget my loneliness.
This evening, I stay alone in the office. Feeling bored, I went to buy a coffee. When I got back, I met Aymen and had a talk with him, saying that I feel quite frustrated about my research.
What he said really encourages me: don't let process manage you. You are the master of process!
